Think

What causes an
Overreaction...
What is it inside of us
That convinces us to not
Think things through.
I don't understand.
And then the pain comes,
Of the one you misjudged
And who suffered the
Consequences
Of your overreaction...
Why does the world have to be
A scary place?
What is so seductive about being
Untrustworthy
So that one can take the
Advantage?
I despise living in this world.
I wish I had been born in
A happier time.
What is so exhilirating about
Death
Destruction
Affairs
Sex
Rape
Murder
Deception...
What has happened to
The people of this world...
Where did we go
Wrong?
And how?

Life Happens

Life happens,
so what?
Life's too short to be angry.
Learn
Do what must be done.
It may not be great,
But an unpopular decision
Is better
In the long run.
Why are so many depressed?
There are too many ways
To make one depressed
In this
Wicked world.
It is now harder than ever to
Combat it.
I know it is easier said
Than done,
But we know what is
Right
And what we need to do to
Change.
The world just makes
It too difficult.
Our idle wicked ways
Are quickly
Destroying
Our world and causing severe
Confusion.
Who cares what is popular?
If the idols of our world
Made it popular to
Jump off cliffs...
Would you do it?

Long Time

Wow, it's been quite a while since I've updated my blog... A lot has happened this past year and a half, and I want to forget it all, but the memories keep coming back. I'm a fool... a blasted, horrid fool. And I keep wanting to think that things are getting better, that they'll change. Some good stuff has happened this summer, but before that... I want to forget. I want to change. But it feels like... I don't know. Maybe I'm not determined enough. Maybe I'm so set in my ways that I can't change. Oh please let it not be true. I don't want to go through any more drama like the kind I've had these past couple of years. Every time I think about what I've done I feel dreadful, disgusting... worthless. In all honesty, I should be dead, or at least have seriously messed myself up. What's wrong with me?

Question

I don't understand why people don't believe me sometimes. I've been trying to explain things, but I'm just not good at explaining, so people don't believe me then and it's frustrating. Well, recently, I've been just getting so mad because I've been trying to explain something to a family member and this family member just doesn't get it. It's like I'm talking to a brick wall. Last night I told this family member something and they didn't believe me! They just walked into their room and said, "Whatever." I'm getting so ticked! I wanted to punch them in the face!!! I'm really telling the truth, but they don't believe me and it's so freaking gay! They ask me every day, "Can you walk yet?" I really want to say, "Yes, I immediately healed overnight... idiot! No, I can't, I'm sorry!" And then this person tells me, "It's been over a week! I just don't understand why you can't walk yet." I just want to say, "Well then, why don't we switch bodies (or just feet) for a day and let's see how good you walk, let's see how well you can keep your balance, let's see you not cry out in pain with every step, much less cry from the pressure of standing! Let's see you not yelp when you accidentally bump your feet into something or when someone accidentally steps on your feet or whatever! Come on, try it fool!" Unfortunately, I don't have the guts to say that to this family member, and even if I did, they wouldn't believe me anyways, so I'll just have to live with their crap... AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! BEYOND frustrating!

Whatever

So I decided I hate blogging. I never know what to write about because there is nothing to write about. It's not fun at all and no one really reads your posts anyways unless they have really boring lives and nothing to fill their time with besides reading blogs and doing nothing. It's not even important, so why, do you ask, am I blogging? Answer: because I have to for school. Do I enjoy it? NO! Does my blog bore you? Most likely. Hey, it bores me. I guess I'm just a really boring person. What a revelation...

Pain In The Butt!!!

Holy cow! So I have been working on English 9 packets for two days straight now. I am almost completely done with one and not even halfway done with the second! My brain is fried! And the worst part is, they're online packets. I can't even begin to count how many times my work has been deleted because I accidentally clicked on something or it just stopped working so I had to press Ctrl-Alt-Delete and start it ALL over again! Talk about frustrating. And what makes it even worse is that I was 1% away from getting a passing grade in my English 9 class... It was fourth term, and I can still remember talking to her and oh my, I was SOOO mad... I couldn't believe it. And she even told me that she's usually lenient and I would've got a passing grade if my final project hadn't sucked so much. She didn't like my final project... and I worked long and hard on that project... just goes to show english is definitely not my forte. Teachers can be so dang harsh sometimes!

Another One

New post. I have a lot of stuff I need to get off my mind.

Hard work and dedication. Why do some people start something that they know will require work, and yet they don't care, don't try, or expect it to be easy? Take me for example. When there's something I don't want to do and there's no motivating influence for me to do it... I do it grudgingly. But, when something motivates me to do it, the chore then seems fun and not so tedious. Also, when I find something I'm good at, and there are certain requirements to fulfill so I can keep doing that something, I bust my butt off and do everything I can to keep doing what I do. But there's a catch... I also have to rely on my team. There are those fun people that we all know and love that don't care about the team and basically are telling you and the other team members, "You're working your butt off for nothing because I don't care and I don't want to do this anymore. I want this to be overwith asap." To me, that's extremely selfish. And don't judge me, I know I'm not perfect. I'm writing these posts for my own benefit as well. But when I work with people, and I work my butt off for the team as well as for myself, and the other team members work so hard too, you feel really stupid for working so hard for the ones that don't care... because all they are doing is dragging the team down with them, but they're selfish and are only thinking about themselves and what they want... and again, you find yourself on the deciding line of if your team will be able to continue and work together and settle our differences... or to have it ripped out from under us. We'll see what the future holds... As a great teacher of mine always says, "Be your better"... yes, it will take work, and yes, it will be hard at times... but isn't that what life is all about?